Wednesday, March 30

Baby Wishlist

My children really don't need anything. But sometimes I stumble upon things that are so cute I must share (instead of purchasing). Seriously.

I am in love with the clothes from dPaM. It's the French version of Old Navy and their clothes are so classic. They have trendy little numbers but also classy, muted colors that are hard to find for little ones. (they also ship to the US if you are interested!)






When I saw this alphabet wall poster, the scientist in me loved it right away. The last thing I need is another ABC thing in my children's room, but this one would be my first choice if I wanted another one.



I don't know how to knit or crochet unfortunately, so when I see something as precious as this, I want to snatch it up. Can I imagine a sweet baby wrapped in this? Yes, yes I can.


Wow! This is just fabulous! If any of you have a blank wall, I suggest filling it with this design. So cool.


Tyson is really getting into painting and I would love to turn him loose on these wooden people.


There are so many times I have crayons but no paper. This would completely solve the problem. I could use one in every bag I have.



I have never had a minky for any of my babies and I think they would love one. This one reminds me of my Grandma, who loved owls.


An alternative to the teething rings you find in the stores, this giraffe is just waiting for little fingers and an active baby. Jack would dig into this right away.


I must have a thing for giraffes. This plush toy is so cute. The opposite side is in another fabric and the tail is so cute!


Another minky that I thought was fabulous! The zoo animals are not too cutesy and there are a lot of ribbons on this one.



Somebody stop me before I order each and every one!

Tuesday, March 22

My past and my present

inspired by sweet Rachel at Smile and Wave


PAST

I used to be an uber perfectionist. My family would say I have mellowed out a lot over the years. Example: in order to have a perfect "curl under" in my hair, I would sit very still practicing the piano and let my hair air dry with me curling it under in a bob. I would get angry with anyone who bumped me or nudged my hair. That's just the tip of the iceburg.

My sisters and I would play pioneers by dressing up and playing in our trees. We would hang clothes from the lines between branches and wander collecting food. I'm sure our neighbors thought we were crazy.

Ballet was a major stress reliever for me from third grade until I graduated from High School. I loved stretching to piano music while delving into my own thoughts. I still do "bar work" in the kitchen against the countertops.



I was dead-set on being a surgeon when I graduated from HS. I started college pre-med, thought about med schools, and then in my sophomore year of school I felt very strongly that that wasn't what I was supposed to do. I finished my degree in Science but always wish that I had done Music or something along the lines of Graphic Design.

My first movie crushes were Val Kilmer and Tom Cruise. For awhile I thought I needed to be a fighter pilot. I was short and I had good eyesight. :) (needed essentials for pilots)

I was a complete nerd in Junior High. I hardly talked to boys and read all of the time. No. Seriously. All the time. It was when I discovered most of my favorite books.

I practiced the piano for 90 minutes everyday from eighth grade until I was a junior and life got way too busy. I feel it taught me a lot about perseverance.

I used to have nightmares that I'd show up to school and forget my locker combination.

I always shared a room with at least one other sister. Sometimes when we were little we would pretend to be talking on the phone to each other. My fake name was "Bonnie" and we would create this little world of picking up kids and doing household things.



PRESENT

My favorite candy flavors are watermelon and sour apple.

I always feel very shy and awkward around new people and doing new things. I hope people don't think I'm unfriendly and I do warm up eventually!

I don't drink coffee, but I do drink Pero every morning. I like it with sugar and this hazelnut creamer. It warms me up and makes me happy while I read my emails and facebook. My comfort food is a comfort drink.


I have a hard time maintaining friendships over distance or long periods of time, especially if I don't see someone all the time. (sorry Kimmy)

I have a thing (fetish) for bedding. No normal sheets or bedding will do. Why not spend 1/3 of your life in super soft sheets and a cozy down comforter? Thread count is important.

I would really love to take an Art class on campus. Some kind of oil painting class or design class.



I feel like I have so much under-developed potential on the piano-- and let me be clear-- I mean this is in a very regretful way, not a braggy way. I would love to continue lessons, we have lots of good teachers at the university, I just know that I could never devote enough time to practicing right now.

I love the TV show Castle. Such good writing. Not too yucky. Just enough mystery. Good characters.

I am not a super patient person. I have to work really hard not to stress out when someone is keeping me waiting for any reason. That being said, I do have enough patience to let my children go at their own pace.

My Mom and sisters are my best friends. When I start feeling bad about not having a "best friend" anymore I remember that my family is always there for me and I can tell them everything. I am just super sad that we are so spread out across the land.

I am collector of bowls and baskets. I have far too many. But I come up with new uses for my baskets almost weekly. There's always something that needs a home.

I crave quiet moments. If I don't get them in the day I feel crazy. I need silence and stillness. I am grateful that my children are mellow and allow me to have peace sometimes.

Saturday, March 19

A little more specific

DISCLAIMER: if you don't want to read about throw-up, bowel movements, and gross stuff, please skip this post. :)

Now that we are home, I thought I'd share a little more about Jack's ordeal that landed him up in Primary Children's for ten days. After his first surgery, the surgeons told us that some side effects could happen, such as reflux, but that his bowels should be working well. They never mentioned that a side effect of abdominal surgery could be the growth of adhesions (scar tissue) that can cause bowel obstructions.

He had been such a trooper through the whole thing, eating like a champion and never vomiting even once!

Fast forward five months. Jack is a chubby, happy little guy. No problems gaining weight or eating. Gradually he began to become a fussy nurser. I thought it must be teething. Then he got a mild case of RSV and who eats well when they are congested? He would nurse and cry afterwards or sometimes throughout the whole session. I tried ora-gel, thinking numb gums might help. His nursing didn't improve but he was still a happy baby overall.

Then, after a peaceful Sunday, Jack became inconsolable. Completely unlike himself. He would not sleep unless he was held and then for only 30 minutes at a time. This lasted all night long. He had no interest in eating and I started to worry about dehydration. Then in the middle of the night he vomited. Lots and lots. It was scary.

Monday morning, he acted a little better, still not wanting to eat, but was taking and holding down Pedialyte by syringe. (he won't take a bottle). I thought it was the stomach flu. We took him to the doctor who told me he was mildly dehydrated, and that we should expect diarrhea to hit next. I told the doctor that he hadn't had a bowel movement in almost a week and half and had no fever. (Jack has always gone about a week between BMs so I wasn't super concerned).

Monday night was a good night. Jack was given a blessing by Dusty and Jeff, and actually slept all night long. He did throw-up once in the night however. I was certain that his flu was almost over. I should mention that his vomit was a horrible light green/yellow color. Almost neon.


On Tuesday, Jack still had no interest in nursing and was still vomiting intermittently. I felt that some of the pedialyte must be getting into his system since he could hold it down a couple of hours. However, Jack seemed to get worse and worse. I was starting to get pretty freaked out. We were giving him a syringe full every five minutes, but he seemed to get more dehydrated. By the night-time I felt we should go to the ER (in hindsight I should have listened to this feeling) but decided we could wait until morning.

On Wednesday we went to the doctor first thing in the morning. Cubby came to be with Tyson since I knew that we would probably be sent to the ER and could possibly be there a long time. I packed a bag with my breast pump (I had been pumping this entire time), the pedialyte, and loads of burp cloths. By this time, his vomit was as horrible dark green almost brown color. I knew it wasn't the stomach flu anymore, but something more ominous.

Sure enough, the Doctor sent us over the ER to get Jack hooked to an IV and get some fluids in his tiny body. He was acting very lethargic by this time and the nursing staff could not get an IV in his body. He was poked and poked. Dusty mentioned to the ER doctor that we thought it might be an obstruction and the Doctor ordered an x-ray of his abdomen. Watching him be squeezed into the tube for the x-ray was the first of my mini-meltdowns. They tried to get him to cry to expand his lungs and he wouldn't cry. What baby won't cry?

Sure enough, his bowel was obstructed. Life Flight was notified and Jack was being sent up to Primary Children's. We decided that Dusty would fly with him so I could go home and pack and gather Tyson. Instead of getting an IV, they gave Jack an IO, which is where they drill into his shin bone. Finally getting some fluids into his little body, he began to wake up. When Life Flight arrived, they put an IV into his scalp and started a morphine drip. I guess the ER here is timid about scalp IVs.

I drove up with Tyson to Salt Lake and met up with Dusty, Lauren and my parents, who had driven to meet us there. Jack was lying in the ER screaming and screaming. I told the nurse that I needed to hold him and finally got him calmed down. We were led to the Operating floor and the anesthesiologist took him from us.

A few hours later, our wonderful surgeon, Dr. Downey came to speak with us and told us about his obstruction and adhesions that had been removed. He likened the obstruction to a balloon that had been squeezed by a tight string. All he had to do was cut the "string" and the intestine was open again. He called this occurrence "extreme bad luck" and was a side effect from his first surgery. We were able to go to the recovery rooms and meet up with our sweet Jack. His finger nails had been just sharp enough that he had clawed his face after the surgery.

His recovery was amazingly quick all things considered. Since we had been through all of this before it didn't seem quite as daunting this time. I felt more traumatized for sure because this was unexpected; but being in the hospital wasn't overwhelming. I knew to ask for a breast pump and kit and we knew all about the resources and how the nursing staff works. The infant unit was wonderful. The nurses were sweet and confident. They all loved our sweet, happy baby.


Jack was rarely left alone. It seemed that even if we weren't there, some relative, either Grandparent or Aunt was there. Only at night when he was sleeping was he alone in the room, although I did stay a few nights after he began eating better.

The process was much like his first recovery from surgery. We waited for his fluid to clear and decrease from his stomach and for poops and bowels sounds. This all occurred about four days after his surgery. When it came time to actually begin feeding him, he wouldn't nurse at all! He would just laugh and smile at me. Then the plot began to thicken. His PICC line (which was feeding him intravenously) got a staph infection. The line had to be removed. Add to this the fact that the IV team could not place an IV at all, so he couldn't receive fluids, and we had a serious problem. He had to begin eating.

I prayed and cried and prayed some more. Finally Jack began to nurse a little at a time. It was enough to keep him going. After a few days, the IV team could get an IV in and he could have antibiotics.
The antibiotics worked and we were eventually released. I am so grateful to my family who visited and got me out of the hospital occasionally.


Both hospital stays were very different. This time, I didn't feel as alone, and ten days is very different than a month. It was nice to have a hospital room as opposed to being in the NICU with lots of other babies. I felt much more prepared this time, knowing what to expect and what to take with me. We were able to stay in the Ronald McDonald House again. Our room was amazing this time. It had just been redecorated and remodeled by some design students. Just a shout out, that if you want to donate to anything, the RMH would be a good choice. It's incredible and such a haven when you are in stress. Community members cook meals almost every night and they have a shuttle to the hospitals. They have washers and dryers, books, movies, lobbies with couches and TVs, fridges to put food in, etc. Such a great endeavor.

We are hoping that this is the last of this sort of thing. Mostly for Jack's sake. It's hard to watch your child go through painful things. But we are glad that he is okay and doing well now.

Wednesday, March 9

While the cat is away........

Tyson plays! While the rest of his family is having not-so-much fun, Tyson is living it up with his grandparents. When I told him that Jack was going to have to go back to Primary Children's he immediately asked me if he could come and then go back home with Grandma and Grandpa (both sets). He has good memories of this Medical Center because there really is a lot of things that kids can do. And of course he had a blast staying with the Grandparents last time.

First, my Dad sent me this picture; we get snow where we live, but not like the frozen tundra of the north aka north western Wyoming.

If you didn't think that the snow looked that deep in the first picture, then check out this photo that Dusty's mom sent me!

Tyson and Grandpa H. in front of the snow bank in their driveway.
We really are truly blessed that we have family so close and in a position that they can take care of Tyson for us. That is such a load off of our shoulders.

Meanwhile, Jack and I have been "hanging" out at the hospital. He is eating so much better but has developed a staph infection, so we might be here for quite a while longer. My body decided to get a cold a few days after we got here, so I get to wear a lovely mask everyday. :)

Jack is starting to act like his more normal self. He is so good tempered. All the nurses and staff comment on how mellow and smiley he is. The only time he gets distressed (besides after his surgery) is when the IV team arrives. He is just small enough and chubby enough that the IV's have been very difficult to place. It truly breaks my heart every time it happens.

My visits from sisters and parents and in-laws have been so wonderful. It has helped my outlook considerably. Thanks you guys!

Sorry the picture is blurry. It's the best I could do with my phone! :)




Friday, March 4

Jack is Back......

in Primary Children's Hospital. Poor little thing. His bowels were obstructed and he needed emergency surgery. He's looking pretty rough, but has had some good rest last night.

We are much more emotionally challenged this time around. For his last surgery we knew of it ahead of time and had a chance to prepare ourselves. This time was scary and sudden. We hoped we were done with is hospital visits. :(

He has an IV in his scalp if you are wondering what is on his head.

I am just so very grateful that Heavenly Father has given us the knowledge and technology to take care of these kinds of things. When we talk to the surgeons we feel this surge of awe because they just saved our child's life. We are so thankful they spent so many years learning and practicing.

Hopefully we will continue to get good news and that Jackie will recover as quickly as possible.

please forgive the quality of my phone pictures :)